Today is the day b4 Hari raya..
Lets see wat happened today:-

1. I help fixed the new curtains
   
2. I vacuum my house
3. Help my mom at the kitchen
4. Gave my brother a ride to school on a rainy day
5. Help my mom buy 5kg of ice from 7-eleven

When i was out to buy ice..i wen to the parking lot at the HDB block when i saw the MAKCIK PARKING!!! giving SAMAN!!! so i quickly u-turn and park a lil bit further!! hehe..a close call..

After mahgrib, i heard the takbir..it makes me sad when i hear the takbir..will i see ramadhan again next year?? will i be able to celebrate it wif my mom again??

I know tat we shud be happy and celebrate our victory of fasting the whole month..but..i feel otherwise..i feel soo sad inside.. emptiness fills my heart.. even when i smile when we make ketupat and kemas rumah. i still feel empty..and lost..will i get to do this again next year??
Insyallah..

Anyway..to all my muslim frens.. SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI!!
Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Fate = Takdir

It lies in the hand of Allah..
but we as humans must do our best..and put in effort to change our fate..
I hope mine will be great..

Insyallah..
Amin.

Send a message..keep ur eyes open for a while..
There's  a piece of a puzzle known as life, wrap and sealed up tight..
Watever happen to the young man's heart..swallowed by pain, as he slowly fell apart..
Saturday, September 27, 2008

Juz now as i was reaching my block's carpark, i saw the girl!
She started her engine and was wearing her helmet.. she rides a YAMAHA SCRAMBLER!!


But her's is a green colour one..but, WOW!!
She have a long curly hair, slim figure, wears a short dress wif leggings and heels!!
She's quite tall..arnd my height..and i hafta say, WOW!! she looks great riding her scram..

Well, i hope to talk to her again..maybe tml or day after that..but my bike is sooo not cool compared to her's..here's mine..



HAHAHAHAHA!!!
Well, i'm changing my bike soon..arnd mid next year...maybe to a FZ150 like this,



OR!!

A TTR125!!



Insyallah..it shall be red or black..haha..reali hope to see her again..i always park beside her..hahahaha

My FYP seems to be progressing pretty well, even the lecturer seems to enjoy reading it.. my next dateline is coming tuesday, the day b4 Hari Raya..

Raya is coming soon..and it shud be a happy day..but i knw tat my raya will be normal or very2 sad.. most people get wat they want..i dun.. its hard living in such atmosphere.

Once again..i know there's someone else..well, tat person might be pretty lucky..
I shall pack up, and get ready for my new life..

A new beginning is the end of the past..
Friday, September 26, 2008

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

So hold your head up high and know it’s the end of the road
Walk down this beaten path before you pack your things and head
Home
At the end of the road you’ll find what you’ve been longing for

I know cause my feet have the scars to show
I was lost with vague direction and no place to call home

It’s time for you to press on
This is not your war
Set your sites to the North and press on
This is not your escape
Wash away what they though of you
Because in this place, we’re all as good as dead
…end cycle…

I'm not feeling today, i got flu, sorethroat and some very irritating neck pains..i got an internal injury from last friday, tml i'll be goin for a checkup again.

My head is spinning like mad..

As u guys knw, CC is on hold for a while.. cos' hazwan, is serving the nation..here's some pics of our last meal together:-


Radi wif his '3 kosong, 1 telur'


Lezlie wif his fish and chips.


Lastly, Hazwan wif his ultra-blur look..
Monday, September 22, 2008

Thats the no. i hafta take note of tonite..

I've had a pretty sad, lucky week. I've had my sad days and i have days where i'm grateful to be alive.

Today i woke up to the sound of Farisha playing in the living room..innocent and clueless..tats the meaning of cute to me. I went to take a bathe and then decided to chat wif my mom abt furthering my studies to overseas and wats my plan for the future. I then helped my mom to make 'kuih makmur' which is one of my most fav. 'kuih'. When i was small i use to call it 'kuih daun2'..Hehe!!

After helping my mom, i went off to the studio to meet radi and ari. We used the H4 recorder which costs $200++, the quality was reali good. But yeah, our band was not full today. Ari sang pretty well and radi did his best as usual. For me, i somehow mastered my full alternate fingering and was in my own world.. I can only play tat well wif them and my band..but not in front of famous people or musicians.. i dunno y..am i intimidated???

We waited till YJ came..and we broke fast wif 'teh peng', and then towards BK @ Pearl centre. i was limping thru' out due to an accident last friday. Then otw home, we bumped into Caracal's guitarist, Gabriel.. he seems normally casual wif his tattooed left hand..

We talked abt people and alot of other stuff otw home in the train wif radi and ari..wat a day..even though i had a bad week and a bad sorethroat, u guys cheered me up. We shall record our demo soon aites..as soon as Kastern is ready to take over the drums..ahaha..( RADI!! use the H4 recorder!!)

Ouh well, time is almost up..i gotta layan my frens online..ahaha..see ya again..i'll promise to upload photos next entry okay!
Sunday, September 21, 2008

All my life..i've never felt this way..so weak and helpless..wats wrong??
Please..i can help..i need to find myself first..@ nite i'm sleepless, in the day, i'm sleeping awake.
Thursday, September 18, 2008

i took a bullet from you (tell me why?)
tried for the act of falling
why dont we act insane??
and start the lies again..

[CHORUS]
i fell infront of you (could you look at me now?)
my perfect settings, your luscious crime..
MY PERFECT SETTINGS, YOUR LUSCIOUS CRIME
i could swear we lied,
could you swear you've tried??

wash your hands clean (tell me why?)
tried for the act of falling
why dont we act insane??
return those lies you stole from me (you stole from me~)
if only we could try..
WE TRYY~

[CHORUS]

im sitting here beside you waiting.
will i ever hold your hands?
im standing here beside you asking.
would you paint me again?

WILL I HOLD YOUR HAND?
WOULD YOU PAINT ME AGAIN?

APAKAH AKU MASIH DALAM MIMPI-MIMPI KU
SESAT TANPA ARAH DI DALAM MINDA LEMAH KU
HARUSKAH AKU TERUS JATUH BEGINI
MENELAN KEEGOAN DIRIKU SENDIRI

SADAR DARI LENA KU
TERPAKU DI CERMIN
SADAR APA YANG KU MAHU
HIDUP YANG LAIN...

I'll sing this for u

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

I had a pretty bad week...and this week turns out to be worst..I'm getting weak every single day. Running?? haven't done that for 2 weeks.. My weight have gone down another 2kg..so tats a total of 10kg. (am i gonna die of too much weight loss??). Once again the specialist gave me the bad news. Is this wat it means like to be alive?? having everything now and then they juz go away?? I got everything i wanted. My runs, my bike, my music, my frens, my family and my results.. wats wrong wif me??
Wats lacking in me?? I dunno..maybe confidence.. maybe trust.. All the things tat u say seems rational and reasonable when can u do it?? can u show me tat u mean it?? Huuh! one moment u said tat u do understand and care and another moment, ur juz practising or shud i say re-living ur ignorant and self-centered life!! SHIT!! I hate this feeling!! FUCK OFF!! DAMN U..DAMN THEM!! I HATE IT!! i'm like a hanging thread wif one string left and its badly battered and near its pull-off..juz waiting to drop..and sumhow it holds on cos' he see sumthing tat he badly want.. Down below is a pool..of which he does not where it ends up to..risking everything to drop in it will cause him to be severly depress and DAMN EMOTIONAL!! its his call..but, Hey! its not ur fault..he made the wrong decision at first..and he got caught up in the act..and reali fell for it.. wat a guy...
I feel like riding around today but sumhow..all my frens are busy..some wif skul, some wif project..some wif their bf/gf..and some working.. wats life to me now?? Only god knws...
Monday, September 15, 2008

Test my arms, kick like crazy
And I've been trying way too long

Only pushed away off to fight you
Now I'm sorry, I'm sorry I'm not sure

Getting off my chest, the story ends

I would find a way without
(Tell him his eyes see too clear)
I would find a way without you
(Tell him his eyes see too clear)

That mistake was gold
And I know that without you
It's something that I could never do

That was why staple the eyes and
Seven dates for me to sell machines
And tear on

Haylie Ecker

I wish i cud meet her one day..and maybe learn from her how to play the violin!! Ahakz!!

Btw, today was kinda fun..went out wif ari,haziqah and radi..zack cudn't make it due so some stuff..ahaha..

We went all arnd town in search of guitars and pickups..terence recommended radi memory man..which is super loopy! And i got sick of looking at soo many guitars.. juz see..no touch and play.. hmm, radi and ari went shopping @ penin after tat..radi bought Dimmu Borgir's shirt and Radiohead while ari bought Trivium's.. me and haziqah were pretty tired..haha

Ouh well..see ya!
Sunday, September 14, 2008

-Axenstar
-Beautiful Sin
-Celesty
-Crystal Eyes
-Dreamtale
-Highland Glory
-Last Tribe
-Sonata Arctica
-Children OF Bodom
-Dragonforce
-Nightwish
-Apocalyptica
-Edguy

Ari, these are the power metal bands i knw..it shud be enuff for now..haha

Caracal's LastNightPREMIX:-

Every once in a while we’re lucky enough to make an unforgettable friend
For me that its you. The taste of coffee and lonliness,
You plainly take away.

Some day I hope and pray that these words help me lead the way

You’re not that gorgeous
Under all of that make up
Don’t be shy to be yourself
And I hate to see this again

And if holding on, makes you drag me along
Your sweet antics, I will file them in a cabinet
Hoping not to stumble upon them again,
Just to follow through

Everything’s for convenience, the nails we chose that scarred the night
Everything for convenience, and we only realize the morning after.
I hope you gain some confidence, it doesn’t hurt to make things happen.
I hope you gain some confidence, and when you do then you will know.
Saturday, September 13, 2008

Its the bassist of russian circles..but hey..i like his style..
Day and night..i have this pain near my abdomen. Its killing me..plus a splitting headache.

Its been sometime since i held u near me.. wish i cud..again..one last time..

Sigur Ros, is a post-rock band..if u like muse, coldplay and peace-loving vibes..u must get this CD..



Explosions in the Sky, is the first band tat i listened to b4 the others below..it caught me wif its loop machines and its delays...reali made me think alot..it keeps u in deep thoughts..



PELICAN!! a post-rock band..they've even been faetured in MTV 2.. its as soothing as listening to songs by Faith Hill..



Russian Circles, post-metal and post-rock..I got 2 of their albums..they are an instrumental band..very technical and soothing..I always listen to it while doing my FYP..AHAKZ!!
Friday, September 12, 2008

Well, my thursday is simply an emotional one..

Went to meet radi @ 2.30pm at Gombak. Reached TIET at arnd 3+.
B4 tat i went for my monthly checkup and its not tat gd..sheesh..

So we continue writing our songs.. song 1, 2 and 3 are more or less complete. Song 4 still need a lil bit more work. And lezlie came out wif song 5. I was kinda solemn last nite because of wat Ari told me..it got me thinking alot..damn!!

This is not the way i want it to be...

So we breakfast @ usual place wif prata again..and we went home..

Went to school @ 1.15pm.. accompany Abu, Nabeel and Gideon.. It was quite fun at first cos' i keep playing the guitar and sang along to my tunes..and no one complained..

Then the meeting was short and sweet..

Liyana came to SP to meet me after soo long.. Liyana is my kindergarten fren. Since nursery..haha..she's my longest fren..hehe..but not the closest.. She still look the same.

And we aLL went Geylang to breakfast..it was great..wif lezlie,gideon,zara,abu,liyana,feroz and aisyah. For a skinny guy like lezlie he ate, 1 kebab, 2 burger ramly and 2 donuts..plus one bottle of soursop.

Well,i ate 2 burgers..and a fishball like food.. and drank a bottle of bandung tat is super sweet..

Hmm.. i'm missing someone alot..but i dun think she misses me as much.. She's busy wif poly forum..and i'm busy wif my FYP and music.. I reali miss her..

Btw, this fasting month is very meaningful to me..

And to Farihah, thank u for helping me alot..
Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Today was exhilarating for me...
Farisha came today and we spent some time together..haha..tickled her and carry her around and around..VERY2 CUTE!!

Then i made my way to school..it was a nice warm day..sat down watch soccer in school while waiting for Ari and Abu..yah..ari sang juz now..its okay..i'm sure he can improve on it..and do the growling thing like INFLAMES.

When abu came..we lepak @ SMA clubhouse..the SHOE smell is damn SICKENING!
The POWER FAN IS LITERALLY VERY POWERFUL!!

And then made my way home..

There's this VAN!! A white van..SUCH AN ASSHOLE!!
he signalled left..and i signalled right..so i gave way ah..then he dun wanna change lane..so i accelerated and change lane..then he was soooooOOOOOOO bLOOOODY close and he honkED!! at mE!!!!! WTF!! I almost skidded and fall..wat an ASSHOLE!! i think it was a miscommunication cos' tat driver forgot tat he signalled..so in a way..he SHUD GAVE WAY TO ME!! cos' i'm turning right at the bend..blooody irresponsible driver..
ANd when i reached bukit batok i was reali pissed off.. It ruined my day..and yah..my bike is half-empty..tml got a MEETING..so i hafta fill it up..hope its less than $7..hahahaha..

BUDGET

SEE YA!!
Tuesday, September 9, 2008

I went out juz now..after asar..and u knw wat...The shop IS NO LONGER THERE!!!! LIke wasted!!

But its okay..cos' farihah was wif me..ao i followed her to buy some kueh for breakfast and yup..left after tat..

Farihah is a very nice fren of mine..she's smart and very funny.. She's been kinda sad lately..but its okay..she got me and fattanah..Well, i hope i helped cheered her up juz now..hehe

P.S. The multi storey parking SUCKS!!!
Sunday, September 7, 2008

Well, its SUNDAY..the first sunday of the fasting month.. i've learnt alot, even though its only one week. Hmm, how can i sum up my week, okay2.. yesterday was a quiet day for me, i sat at home and helped my mom wif anithing tat i cud.

On friday, i pillion my brother to the mosque for friday prayers and back. On the way back my motorcycle have this loud sound from the exhaust, after i parked the bike at the carpark of my flat, i found out the exhaust kinda burst and exposed.. there was smoke and strong oil smell.. so i went up, change my shirt and quickly temporary repair it and make my way to Albert motors to repair it.

After it was repair i make my way to skul, juz along the junction of queensway shopping centre as i wait for the traffic light to change to green, I WITNESS an ACCIDENT.. damn, it was between a car and a bicycle..the guy juz flew.. i din get to see wat happens next cos' the light turned green and i made my way to campus..

When i reached campus..it was familiar faces again, Abu, farid, Nabeel and aishah.. we had our breakfast @ IMM.. syafiq and aishah had burger KING while the rest of us had something else from banquet. WOW! the makcik who cooked our food, mcm tk ikhlas (not sincere) BUt yeah, at least our stomach is happy.

Went back to skool, sat in the meeting till 10+ and made my way home..ouh yah, during the FOT camp, i'll have a special task every morning..haha..i'll enjoy doing it for sure..

Anyway, take care readers!! I'm goin out later to WestMall to buy some nickel strings for Layla.. maybe Farihah is tagging along..

HAF A GREAT DAY!!

Days fade, away..but guilt still burns inside of me..i feel as if i'm responsible

YAHOO!!! I'M NO: 177001 OUT OF 1,000,000 PEOPLE WORLDWIDE!!! IT MEANS THAT I BEAT 822,999 PEOPLE!! I FEEL SO GOOD RIGHT NOW..HAHA
Saturday, September 6, 2008

Ah, ANOTHER IDOL OF MINE.. HOW CAN SUMONE PRETTY GROWL AND SCREAM LIKE HER??

Thursday, September 4, 2008

JEANNE SAGAN, THE BASSIST OF ALL THAT REMAINS.. I WISH I CUD PLAY THE BASS LIKE HER

Lie!
Sometimes this beauty is choking me
but at least its your hands at my throat
Your lashes brush against my cheek
coupled with your breath on my neck
The world around you falls away and I will still be there
I know my words are like daggers but they cut me too
And I am sorry for all the f**ked up things I say I didn't mean it
And I never realized that I can be what I hate
Lets be happy with what we have, enjoy the beauty in these days
Sometimes we'll laugh sometimes we'll scream no one said caring was easy
I know there was a time when emotions felt like pulling teeth
Sometimes I felt so soulless I couldn't even look at me
It's pathetic to hate who you are and it feels like hell to change
But I'll be damned if I push you away
I remember when my dreams were dying
and I damned the sun, I damned the sun to pieces
I carved hateful thoughts into my chest
then you took my hand and nothing, no nothing has ever felt the same
Wednesday, September 3, 2008

"She said, it wun hurt, its the beginning of a beautiful ending.."

Listen to our local bands..

myspace.com/sgsilhouette
myspace.com/caracalcaracal

Tuesday, September 2, 2008

TAKE A LOOK AT MY TIMING!!!
Monday, September 1, 2008

Disclaimer

I am a self-derived Hardcore Rocker and I can guarantee that I'll rock your socks off.
I'll play a song 4 u..
Vibrant colours are the absolute love.
Pls be kind and dun spam aites

Profile

Hello, everyone (:
I'm a part-time sessionist.
Graduated frm SP.
I'm positive.
Family & friends are loved

Email | Facebook

Desires

I wan a new catridge book
A new bike, WR200
more CDs
more ideas
more decals!!!
admission into a University!!
A pair of shoes
more tees

Loves

Skool
Music
Writing
Jamming wif CC and Oath Of God Gigs
Goin out
Soccer, Runs

Tagboard

Music

The Uninvited Thirteenth

Links

Sheila
Fattanah
Ari & Iqah
Adelina
Farlol
Yun
Nures
Alawiyah
Dee
Farid
Radi
Putri
Zara
Sharizan
Myra
KyLe
ABE
Jannah
Huda
Purevolume
Audioreload
Soft Music
MySpace
Singapore Poly

Memories

July 2007
January 2008
February 2008
March 2008
April 2008
May 2008
June 2008
July 2008
August 2008
September 2008
October 2008
November 2008
December 2008
January 2009
February 2009
March 2009
April 2009
May 2009
June 2009
July 2009
August 2009