I left my head when I was home,
I caught an evil side of me,
I only breathe when I'm alone.
The days await till I am gone.
I grew right next to your heart.
I should have grabbed it and pulled it down.
I feel what your feeding me.
I hear what you really speak.

Could the eater rot in time?
He's sucking out the lines that make you notice
the world as an illusion.
Your body pushed through it.
In birth it all confuses us.
What do I do when I'm lying on a table?
My mother didn't want me, my whole life I've been starving. 9 months to grow inside you, my life was as fresh as the mind of an infant.
Where did I go? Hell, I knew that my heart wouldn't make it.

And the due date is close.
Well heaven knew it take a part of me.
But I only speak, I only speak when I am hungry.
Now the lights on my face.
And I've never felt more ugly when the devil grabbed me by the legs and shook me.
I was gone, you said it.

Homes where death is, I'll just forget it.

Take a part of me..
I dun understand y am i still here..
Why shud i be here..
I'm an illusions..a dark cloth at nite..
He said, this is our home.
There can never be us..
I'll just forget it..

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Fear love a failure to nothing but and empty shape we collide and we were dead on

Are you tired enough
I think I hurt your head enough
Bruising me the first touch
Well fall asleep well close it up

Count the days till you get rid of me
Till I fall asleep I am meaningless endlessly you'd feel
Fine if you could bury me six feet underneath I wont see it
And now I'm recklessly ending it as it falls from the stage to the floor
The day ends when I say it does I'm afraid of him, I'm afraid of him

My mother sings when she's afraid of me because I hurt her more,
More than the son she sees it scares her half to death
My father sings when he's afraid of me because I hurt him more,
More than the son he sees it scares us all to death.

Oh, my son why did you leave me? where did you run my son? why did you leave me?
Monday, August 24, 2009

Its been 3 days of fasting..
Its the usual feeling i get every year..excitement and anticipation..

I've made so many mistakes..in just 1 year..i've changed alot..
Lost so many..

No, not this time.. yes i knw, u wun find wat ur looking for..

Its crucial at this stage tat i make every1 understand wats next..
Friday is the day of the statement and court session.

Been a heck of a week..
Fitness level dropped drastically..

I can't even run 2.4km within 13mins..

i nid to shed 3 mins of my timing..
I lost sum1..but its okay..i knw tat person will be happier w/o me.
'i'm a nuisance in ur life'
Thursday, August 20, 2009

So mute and beautiful to me..
A promise kept on high..
An angelic look at life..
Through open eyes..
Tuesday, August 18, 2009

U tell me...
What shud i do???

I'm lost..
Everything is do is not wrong..
Lost so much...

and..
losing more...
Thursday, August 13, 2009

Its been a bad week for me..
Since i've graduated everything bad is happening to me..everything, financially, physically, emotionally and socially..

A true fren u once said..
True??

Frens..they come and go..like wat Ain said..
I had a best fren in sec sch, Faridah, but after sec sch, i was busy wif poly and she was busy wif her sch..

I then had another bestfren, Fattanah, but after she got into RMIT and got a BF, i'm left all alone..

People change..
I've changed too.

The life tat i had, was such a dream, the moments of happiness and the satisfaction i get from being the best i cud..

I guess, frens do come and go..
Wednesday, August 12, 2009

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